vintagewitch: (UP Coast Perhaps)
I'm writing this from my lunch break at work. Things have been just nuts this week! Part of that might be that Matt and I went home for the weekend to see my folks, and things move at a much slower pace out there. (My parents live on this farm about 10 miles from the closest town of 400, so ... yeah. It's quiet.)

This is the last full week that Matt's in town. He's headed off to work on another movie for 7-8 weeks. With how disjointed the communication has been, he's not sure exactly when he needs to leave, which is stressful. He got an itinerary, but from word-of-mouth from other crewmembers it sounds like it's likely to change.

I've been trying to spend as much quality time with him as possible before he goes. He's been depressed lately, and so I'm trying to give him some extra love. I think it's been good for our relationship that we both struggle with mental health issues - we get it, you know? - but it is also difficult when we're both up and down.

Anyway, I want this weekend to be really fun and special and romantic but we're both broke as hell. We'll figure something out - definitely don't need money to have a good time. It's more important to both of us to be mindful/thoughtful than it is to be flashy.

Some things, in no particular order:

1. While I was home, my mom and I looked through some of her natural healing books to see what to do for my gut troubles. And we found a couple of remedies that are working (for now!). This is especially important because on Friday, the pain was so bad I had to have Matt come and walk me up to the apartment from the parking lot. So I have an appointment to see my doctor again on Wednesday, but thanks to some natural remedies it's at least been tolerable this week.

2. I got a TON of writing done on Sunday! I did some word sprints with folks on the @NaNoWordSprints twitter account, which really got words out in a short amount of time. The writing has been going well now that I have decided that the novel will be JUST in first person, and I feel like I have a better blueprint to finishing the draft.

3. I might be brought on for a short-term environmental organizing gig. It would be part time, but pay well, and I would be able to keep part time hours at the accounting firm. Had a hurried conversation this morning with one of the supervisors, and am waiting to hear from her again.

4. I started rereading "The Spiral Dance" b. Starhawk. I noticed that I have a lot of pagan/Wiccan reference books (grimoires, herbal encyclopedias, mythology compilations, etc), but not too much for theology (thealogy). It's been very comforting, and I definitely want to read more of this kind of writing. Not just instructions - but spiritual.

I really miss having a coven to practice with. It's been 8 years since I had a good group. Sometimes I feel selfish practicing solitary - I want to send my energy up to a group of people. I want to commune, to build others up, not just myself.

There are Reasons why I haven't sought out a coven where I live (a former abuser is in the community here and I would rather not cross paths), but I think I need to take baby steps into the finding a coven. There is a strong community of pagans here, I just need to find the right group to join up with.

A friend and I are going to visit a local pagan bookstore soon. I've been wanting to pick up a new tarot deck to practice with, and she's got other things to be looking for. Perhaps I can start asking questions or learn how to find people.

Anyway, lunch break is up. Back to work with me.
vintagewitch: (twin peaks still life)
It snowed today. Everyone was grumbling about it, but I actually really love this weather - unseasonable as it may be, I like it when the transition seasons last a while.

GI issues still very much with me. Boss-man took us out for lunch today, and I thought I was being good ordering a soup and salad. I mean, I knew the soup (tomato basil) would be creamy and the salad would have a dressing, but I didn't expect to feel as bad as I did. We ate at noon and I didn't feel "normal" again until probably 6 tonight.

So I had oatmeal with strawberries for dinner, because I'm at a loss. Not feeling great, but also not as terrible as I could be feeling?


I'm getting back into the groove of writing more and more. Now that I am officially starting grad school in the fall, I have some pretty incredible motivation to finish my first draft. I would love to be at a point of editing, reading, and rewriting the first draft when the semester starts.

The novel has a complex structure right now (a framing character who speaks in third person, a diary contemporary to events happening, transcripts of interviews, etc.), and I feel like I've been losing the power of the story through trying to keep these simultaneous structures going. I do write in Scrivener, which helps ME keep track of it all, but it's become very scattered and difficult to find a way forward. 

Tonight I had long talks with Matt about it (basically me nattering on while we played a round of backgammon), and he listened, and I think I've figured out the structure issue. It needs to be found-footage, which means it needs to be in first person all the way through. That's how I envisioned it when I outlined, and that's how I'll finish it. 

That will also help me play up the fact that it's a fantasy/mystery/horror. There are some things the reader will NEVER find out.

So now I just have to charge forward with my wordcount and get it all on paper!

I've been looking for a good community on DW to share writing goals. There are many out there, but it looks like most of the ones I was interested in open up membership in December for a yearly goal (75,000/year seems the standard). Then I found one that lets anyone in, lets you set and change your own goals, and is fairly active.

The community is: [community profile] words_count ! If you're working on a project, you should join me over there and we can hold ourselves accountable!

Man, accountability is great.

I feel like I had other thoughts that were more about my life and things happening personally, but I am a little too addled to remember them now due to Big Writing Thoughts.

I have a lot of reading to do - not because I *have* to, but because I want to. My book club is reading "Love Medicine" b. Louise Erdrich in May, followed by "The Goldfinch" b. Donna Tartt for June. Both are fairly hefty, and take some thinking as you go along. And I've got some books on Midwestern folklore and mythology that I'm perusing/taking notes on for the novel.

Anyway, that's enough about stories for tonight. 

Here are some things I'm grateful for: 

1. Backgammon with my partner
2. My lovely, mischievous cat
3. Yoga, and myself for getting back into a more regular practice


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