It's been a rather anxious + contemplative day

[vintagewitch]

TRUMP HAS BEEN IMPEACHED TWICE. 

Fuck Mitch McConnell forever for not calling hearings in the Senate until at least the 19th.

I woke up anxious. Like, on the verge of a panic attack upon waking. Part of it was the Cat Brigade, chasing one another all around our bedroom to get our attention and demand breakfast. Thankfully, today I had therapy planned, and I cried a bunch. I decided to journal afterwards, to make sure I took down the most important things my therapist said. I think I'll try to do that from now on: My therapist is very good, but I feel like Quarantine Brain means that the wise things slip away rather quickly. 

Anyway, so I have done a lot of self reflection and now I'm posting here. I just finished my new moon house cleansing, warding, and banishing and felt like writing a bit and maybe cruising the reading page.

I got two shiny new decks this weekend: The Gothmancy: Darkness and Divination Tarot and the Alcheringa Oneiromancy Oracle Deck. They are both incredible. 

I feel like I was always a wannabe goth, but I like colors too much to commit to The Life full time. But I mean, I started a horror book club recently, I'm really into fantasy, I love a dramatic makeup look, most of my clothing is black even if I do wear some colors, and I'm literally a professional witch and tarot reader. I think the only thing I'm missing to be "true goth" is the music, but I realized I actually listen to a lot of goth music, but I don't exclusively listen to goth. 

ANYWAY. 

I'm over performative subcultures and trying to conform to the aesthetic.

The decks are very pretty and making my inner child very happy. The Gothmancy tarot has a song associated with each card, and they are extremely good associations. Like, "Lonely" by Tom Waits for the Hermit? "Silent All These Years" by Tori Amos for the Sun? YES!

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