vintagewitch | Entries tagged with fandom

Wow hello hi. I can't believe it's been two years since I logged in here. I'm back because I'm considering doing Get Your Words Out in 2025, and I know that they host the event on Dreamwidth. I feel like Tumblr would be a better (more popular) place to host it, but I get that Dreamwidth has capabilities that Tumblr doesn't. IDK.

Life has been absolutely nuts. I don't even know where to start with a new entry, so I think I'll just pop straight into life as it is now without much preamble.

I'm feeling super burned out lately between a lot of life things that are intense. Earlier this year, when I was in a hell job and couldn't see my way out, I devoured the All For The Game series. To people who know, that should be the biggest indication of my mental health. The books are not super well written, but the structure and symbols are really interesting. It's kind of a perfect fandom inspiration because there is so much to explore and the writing of the original isn't so good that it feels untouchable.

Anyway - I'm back on my bullshit and sort of playing around with some scenes.

I do this thing where I have fandom scenarios that just live in my head. Sometimes the same scenes will play over and over and they will get me through the day. Sometimes I associate an album really strongly with one of these stories. And I've been doing that lately.

It's like ... daydreaming as a coping mechanism.

Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: brat on repeat

When I posted the other day and mentioned this fanfic, a bunch of people were interested, so I figured I'd post a rec!

I just finished this and hooooly shit. All that angst and stuff is so worth it! To be honest, I feel like this could have been split up into two fics, but considering I just immediately started reading the sequel ... probably not necessary.

Title: Tit for Tat
Author: mintaminta
Fandom: Harry Potter
Pairing: Drarry
Rating: Explicit (and boy does it earn it)
Wordcount: 388,817
Warnings: Alcohol abuse/alcoholism, Past Abuse, Angst, Depression, Anxiety, Eating Disorders, PTSD (check the tags for other stuff - this is just the trigger warnings)
Summary: Our story picks up five years post-war. Harry's ready to come out and leave the public life behind; Draco's looking for quiet reintegration into magical society in London. True angst! Emotional vulnerability! Romance of the star-crossed lover variety! If you're looking for a plot-driven fic with all the smut and all the feels, here it is folks.

Read Tit for Tat on AO3

Current Mood: peaceful
Current Location: work - on my lunch break
Current Music: work radio playing

I've fallen very behind on reading people's blogs on here. I'm so sorry! I think I need to just be less of a completionist - I don't need to read *every single entry*, it's enough to show up and read what I can/what I'm able.

I'm at my parents' farm again. We're taking a calculated risk and having a nice visit this weekend.

Dad has his first shot from the vaccine. Anais and I have been quarantining intensely, and my parents even moreso. Or at least, we're quarantining as much as we can, considering Anais's work. But xe got a job that won't be public facing,so we're going to be a lot safer. We're being as responsible as we can seeing one another.

The farm is really nice. I like the quiet.

I debated bringing my fic journal with me out here, and then realized that no, I probably wouldn't need it since I haven't worked on the fic since November. Sure enough, what have I been doing since this morning? Writing away on my fic. I've realized that when I get back home, I need to work on getting my plot embryos into an outline form. The fic doc is already 24,000 words and I'm only halfway through chapter 3. "slow burn" will definitely be one of the tags on this project. XD

Current Mood: creative
Current Location: the farm
Current Music: Left Handed Kisses by Andrew Bird feat. Fiona Apple

Title: Errand

Author:

vintagewitch aka shopwitch on AO3

Fandom: Suspiria (2018)

Pairing/Characters: Susie Bannion/Madame Blanc

Rating/Category: T

Prompt: Self-prompted! Pimping my fandom!

Spoilers: (if applicable) I mean, watch to the end of the film.

Summary: The Day after the Mother of Sighs awakened, she had some errands to run. Rumors fly about the academy, and slowly a plan is formed.

This is a one-shot, slice of life. A resolution. A coda.

Notes/Warnings: None, but it's spooky.

Link: "Time moves in circles. Our bodies are reborn, a new soul flashes behind old eyes, we strive harder to reach new peaks, to jump higher."

Ahhhhh this is my first fic actually posted to AO3 and it feels like a mess and I'm SO anxious about it! But here you go, have a Suspiria fic! Written for smallfandomfest. *runs and hides*

Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: Suspiria soundtrack duh

Yesterday was mostly lovely, which I so needed.

I got together with my friend Katy to drive around and find Christmas presents for our loved ones. It's always so much fun to talk to them, and we laughed a lot, in spite of both of us going through a real rough time right now. I am so happy with my purchases! I can't wait to gift them to folks.

First off, I'm making these cool cloth + beeswax food wrappers for people this year. Jo-Ann fabrics was having a big sale on quilting squares, so that's what I got. It was 5 for $5, so I got 10. They're all really cute. I found some awesome Sushi cloth for Max + Chris, some really nice batik-style abstracts for mom, some botanicals and crystals for myself, and other cute things. TBH I was skeptical about using the beeswax cloth because I didn't know how to clean it, but it's actually really easy.

And it's a nice colorful wrapper for a sandwich that doesn't need to be a plastic bag or a plastic tupperware, so that's a definite bonus.

As for other gifts, here's what I picked up:

Mom: A New Yorker puzzle (since my partner is from the Jersey suburbs and loves New York City, we've been traveling back there a bunch and I wanted her to experience a small piece of that)

Dad: I'm planning on getting him some NYC specialty foods while I'm there, like mustards or bbq sauces or anything that's kind of uniquely "New York". (Any tips from East Coasters very welcome!)

Anais: A book-shaped locket (need to get smol photos printed) and for Jokabokaflod I got hir a copy of "I'll Be Gone in the Dark"

Manny: A puzzle version of the Great Wave Off Kanagawa + Volume 2 of Paper Girls

Max: A "Christmas at the Burrow" candle from Frostbeard, a local book-themed candle maker

Chris: Need to find a nice set of DND dice

Katy: Need to get some Yak Traks, and maybe something else too

Other things making me happy:

The Drarry discord. Fanfic is helping me overcome burnout in a big way right now. I've sent the first two chapters of my fic off to be beta read (by Max, who is planning to help me with pacing and repetition), and it's so lovely to focus on fiction. I think once I get a manuscript for my first book on witchcraft done, I'm going to focus on fiction. I've got a couple ideas kicking around, but I know it's not their time yet. In the meantime: Fanfic!

It's also so so so important to have something that is a writing project that I don't need to monetize, and in a very real way CAN'T monetize.

I'm also really digging this particular YouTube LoFi Chill channel. I know that "chill lo-fi hip hop beats to study to" is the Millennial elevator music but I DON'T CARE. It's relaxing and helps my brain when I'm struggling. It's also cute and makes me feel like a slice-of-life anime character which is not bad. Not bad at all.

(Oh man, if I could do art, I would make a cover for that: Gay Witch Just Trying to Write and Keep Her Plants Alive) XD

Current Mood: peaceful
Current Music: LoFi Youtube Channel (linked in post)

Been having an extremely bad brain day. Had to cancel basically all of my afternoon plans and evening stuff.

Managed to write over 1000 words this morning before the intrusive thoughts really kicked in though. And! Late last night I got the first two chapters of my fic off to my beta. I'm super nervous what they'll think, but I'm fairly proud of it. Mostly, I'm concerned with pacing. At this rate, it looks like it'll be ... a very slow burn. Though the action is really going to heat up in chapter 3.

Anyway, have a fic rec:

Title: The Sleeping Beauty Curse
Author: who_la_hoop
Fandom: Harry Potter
Pairing: Drarry
Rating: Explicit
Summary: When Draco Malfoy falls into a cursed sleep and can only be woken - at least, according to the Daily Prophet, that impeccable source of truth - by 'true love's kiss,' Harry Potter knows there's no way on earth he's the answer to this particular riddle. Is he ...?
Why I rec: This fic is cute and funny as hell and one of my favorite tropes: AccidentalBond!fic
Linky: https://archiveofourown.org/works/13076754/chapters/29914728

What I've bookmarked for later, when my brain is better:

Title: Little Compton Street (One Rainy Night in Soho)
Author: LLAP115, writcraft
Fandom: Harry Potter
Pairing: Drarry
Rating: Explicit
Summary: Draco is lonely, Harry hates the press and it won’t stop raining in London. Harry discovers a magical street that’s close to disappearing forever and Draco realises he’s one rainy night in Soho away from finding everything he’s been searching for.
Linky: https://archiveofourown.org/works/16025378/chapters/37401098
Why I'm excited to read it: I love queer history! And this is inspired by queer London history, which I'm not as familiar with. So yeah! That's cool!

Recs for me? Please? Would love a good Draco/Harry/Hermione or Pansmione. (I have a hard time with Dramione, particularly because Draco strikes me as G-A-Y, though love him in trio with Hermione.) Definitely need more good portrayals of Hermione in my fanfic these days - I feel like a lot of people don't know how to write her really well!

Current Music: "Nobody" b Hozier

Today's main goal: Get some words out on my fun fanfic project.

Word count: 1563 and counting
Project: Ain't No Grave fanfic
Fandom: Harry Potter

Took today off for mental health reasons. I won't go into it here, but suffice to say I had a Massive Panic Attack yesterday and am feeling kind of emotionally hungover.

Hence: A day of writing fanfiction.

I'm honestly really pleased with how my fanfic is coming out. I'm almost two chapters in. Just a couple more scenes left to write today, then I can send it off to my beta.

One thing that I'm really trying to think about with my fic is not glorifying Pureblood culture. Bringing in the horror of the supremacy at the heart of it. I like to think of Draco as recovering from growing up in a cult. Rich, elite Pureblood bullshit is a cult all its own, and he has been so thoroughly controlled for most of his life. So in this fic, I'm trying to pepper in Easter Eggs of him reading books about surviving a cult, psychology, etc. Or of him talking to Ron or something and offhandedly mentioning a really gruesome Malfoy family ritual, and then realizing that that's not normal for regular Purebloods.

I also Know Things about medieval grimoire magic, and so I'm peppering in some of the more gruesome details. I know way more about Norse than French/Italian stuff (Malfoy being a French last name), but a girl can invent new stuff. I'm a huge fan of horror and weird fiction, and so I want to bring in some subtle horror. A little less folk-ish than Midsommar style, a little less religious than Hereditary.

I'm also grappling with how to write Harry. The fic takes place really quickly after Deathly Hallows/the final battle (I admit, it's an 8th Year fic), and I imagine there are some shifts to Harry's personality now that he has died and come back to life. I imagine finally living without a piece of Voldemort's soul will make him feel lighter. But there's a LOT of adjusting happening, and it comes in fits and starts, so he's been weirdly difficult for me to write.

Oh well! It's all just for fun anyway.

I'm gearing up for NaNo this year. Most of NaNo will be spent working on my grimoire, but on my "days off" from work I'll add my Drarry fic wordcount to the ticker. It's all about getting in the habit of writing daily, right?

The NaNo website also has some great resources, which I'm using to get a more firm plot around my fanfic. I know the story and motif, but I need to get more specific plotpoints down on paper. I'm somewhere between a plotter and a pantser - I still love those moments of intuition and experimentation, but I want it to be in service of plot. I love Stephen King's thoughts of "these are the characters, this is the situation, GO", but I can't bring myself to do that. He is, after all, notorious for not being able to finish things well.

Today's validation station:

1. I did one tarot reading today, and the client said it was super helpful.
2. I got a hearty tip earlier this week for two readings that I wasn't super feeling. But apparently it helped the querents, and they gave me an extra $16.
3. I am so excited to work with my beta on my fic. Honestly it feels really great to be writing something that isn't a part of my business.

Current Mood: sick
Current Location: The Rookery
Current Music: Spotify Discover Weekly

SO much has changed since the last time I was active on this account.

Here's a quick run-down of things you need to know:

1. The dream job that I got? Yeah it was terrible and my coworkers were extremely abusive and I left it and the field of public policy entirely.
1.5. I'm back in the Twin Cities
2. I am now a full time witch, making money through tarot readings + teaching classes. Money is hard, but the work is good.
3. I now live with my partner. I refer to our home as "The Rookery," since we're both corvid enthusiasts.
4. Chronic pain got really, really bad this year. Had to leave my job as a housecleaner. Still workin on chronic pain stuff.
5. Just went through treatment for my eating disorder. Will probably talk a lot about living in ED recovery here, but don't worry - it'll be under a trigger warning/cut.
6. I'm also back here because I'm getting more and more into fanfic and miss fandom community. I'm mostly in the Harry Potter fandom, but want to expand a bit into Game of Thrones.

That's kind of what you need to know? I think it is. Yes.

I've been wanting to journal for a long time, but it doesn't work super well. I think it's because, when I had the most reliable journal, it was my Livejournal. I still keep a Book of Shadows, and plenty of notebooks, but a diary? Well. I guess this format is the best for me.

One thing my therapist has recommended is keeping a gratitude journal. Not just things that I'm grateful for, but specifically things about my body that I'm grateful for. I've struggled to actually do that, largely because I want a gratitude journal to be ... more ephemeral? I don't know. This feels like a better format for that. And posting here is weirdly a different kind of accountability. It's easy to forget about a journal - but I'm online all the time.

I've also been getting into fandom again. Unapologetically. Now that my "day job" is witchy shit, I need a hobby that takes me away from that entirely. Reading fiction has been a wonderful balm, and when I'm going through a rough time mental health wise, fanfiction is a lovely comfort. I actually started writing a fic this spring - it's Drarry, and it's been rolling around in my head for a year. I do a lot of writing for work, but no writing of fiction. Those feel like totally different thinking processes.

But yes, I WILL post my fic here, as well as on AO3. My username there is

shopwitch , and I locked down the

shopwitch journal here. I'll probably use that as the main spot to POST fic, but crosspost to here. So give that one a follow? There's nothing going on over there at the moment because I'm not quite ready to post.

ANYWAY. That's a lot of business type stuff for this morning. It's a weekday morning and I am going to go take a nice long soak, because my workday technically doesn't start until later.

Chat soon, y'all!

Current Mood: calm
Current Location: The Rookery
Current Music: "Six Underground" b Sneaker Pimps

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Entries tagged with fandom

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