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lost in my thoughts on the train
Nov. 12th, 2014 08:38 amI've really lost momentum on NaNo, mostly due to the fact that Matt and I opened a whole can of worms with the whole "moving up North" thing.
On the one hand, it's a very natural conversation for the two of us. On the other, it's something I never really considered possible. Now that we've talked about a 5- or 10-year plan, I'm more excited than ever to get on with the next part of my life.
Yesterday I the train I rewrote my entire Stayement of Purpose - and you know what, it's better. I'm eager to get in to school, to get started on research that will place me up there. Work is hard, in the meantime.
I'm trying not to get worker up about it. Yesterday was Marian's first day back, and I was expecting her to be a really anxious micromanager, but she wasn't as bad as I expected.
There's a part of me that feels bad, because I'm not that interested. I'm not the right girl for the job, my heart isn't in it, and I just don't want to damage the organization with my presence.
This is crazy. Why do I feel such loyalty? I was put through so much this year. There are some really backwards practices at work. ... But the organization is necessary.
Right? It must be.
I'll figure it out. I'm having dinner with a very good friend on Friday, and she's got s good head for this stuff.
In the meantime, it's a very good thing I'm so excited for school.
Now ... Need to get some writing done tonight. Not giving up on NaNo yet!
Can I count this toward my word count? Jk. But no really.
On the one hand, it's a very natural conversation for the two of us. On the other, it's something I never really considered possible. Now that we've talked about a 5- or 10-year plan, I'm more excited than ever to get on with the next part of my life.
Yesterday I the train I rewrote my entire Stayement of Purpose - and you know what, it's better. I'm eager to get in to school, to get started on research that will place me up there. Work is hard, in the meantime.
I'm trying not to get worker up about it. Yesterday was Marian's first day back, and I was expecting her to be a really anxious micromanager, but she wasn't as bad as I expected.
There's a part of me that feels bad, because I'm not that interested. I'm not the right girl for the job, my heart isn't in it, and I just don't want to damage the organization with my presence.
This is crazy. Why do I feel such loyalty? I was put through so much this year. There are some really backwards practices at work. ... But the organization is necessary.
Right? It must be.
I'll figure it out. I'm having dinner with a very good friend on Friday, and she's got s good head for this stuff.
In the meantime, it's a very good thing I'm so excited for school.
Now ... Need to get some writing done tonight. Not giving up on NaNo yet!
Can I count this toward my word count? Jk. But no really.
