Field Notes

 Today was an incredibly good day. 

I launched the Big Thing for work, and I've had a much more positive response within the first day than I thought I would get. It's definitely something that people want/are interested in. I did a blot to Odin right before I did the thing, and I think that helped me put out some more positive energy. It's also the full moon, so launching a witchcraft class on the full moon is a good idea. 

If I can get the students I need to run the course, it would give me an amazing baseline for getting through "famine" parts of the year. Being a creative entrepreneur is definitely ... feast or famine mode, in terms of money. 

I need 6 students for this class. And that will give me an amazing, stable financial situation. 

Then, this evening, my parents met up with A and I for dinner for hir birthday, and it was just so heartwarming. I told them that I"m going back to recovery for my eating disorder, and they were glad that I'm doing what's right for me. I was really worried that they would be critical of my need to go back to treatment - so many people think of healing as a linear process, but it's absolutely not. 

My mom also is apparently reading "Intuitive Eating" right now, which is sooooo good. I know that she has had an eating disorder/disordered eating her whole life, so I'm really thankful she's diving into that right now. She even apologized if she had passed on any eating disorder stuff to me! Which is huge! 

So I'm feeling incredibly supported and loved and lucky to have the family that I have. Truly, my family is amazing. My heart is so warm right now.

Today I also: 

*Went for a run without thinking ONCE about how my body will change. Yay exercise endorphins! Yay progress re: body dysmorphia!
*Caught up on a bunch of articles in my New Yorker mags that have been laying around. Super interesting. 
*Took a nice long back in the middle of the day because dammit, when you are self-employed you can do that. And it was fucking luxurious.