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First real dreamwidth post!
Apr. 12th, 2015 07:19 pmSo this is the first entry on DreamWidth. So far ... I'm really liking it. I haven't found anyone to follow yet, but this seems to be a much more active community than Livejournal is now.
And that import feature ... that's pretty neat.
Today's been a weird day. Weird, and huge, and personal, and emotional. I've been hanging in the lurch over the last several months. I found out I got into grad school, and I have a merit scholarship. But I've also been interviewing for a dream job. A job that I found out today isn't going to be mine. So it's school. That's a good option, but I have to admit I was disappointed I wasn't accepted for the job.
This is after a long roller coaster of weighing the pros and cons of which I would prefer, and after much deliberation deciding that I would rather go for the job. It's been a whirlwind because the job would have meant being separated from my partner for a period of time, relocating, needing to build myself up in a new city, and working hard to keep a new nonprofit going and expanding.
I don't know. It's tough. It's definitely been hard for me to sort out my feelings about all of this.
I'm fine now. I cried when I heard I didn't get the job. But ... This just means grad school. I keep being unable to find work because of my experience level. So grad school will provide me with experience, as well as a network, to get the job I really want. Maybe I don't have any real feelings left to spend on this. It feels like I've already put in far more brainspace than I need to on this issue, and it's finally resolved.
That's a relief!
Otherwise, today's been really weird. It's gorgeous out, but I've been stuck inside sick. I feel fine mentally, but I can't really be out and about. Part of my chronic health issues.
So today has mostly consisted of starting at the beginning of Sailor Moon, doing laundry, and reading. Cuddling the cat. Napping. All the good stuff.
I'm exhausted. Matt said he'd be home with some foods, and should be walking in the door any moment now.
I will probably write a better post later. For now, I guess I'm just documenting the day.
And that import feature ... that's pretty neat.
Today's been a weird day. Weird, and huge, and personal, and emotional. I've been hanging in the lurch over the last several months. I found out I got into grad school, and I have a merit scholarship. But I've also been interviewing for a dream job. A job that I found out today isn't going to be mine. So it's school. That's a good option, but I have to admit I was disappointed I wasn't accepted for the job.
This is after a long roller coaster of weighing the pros and cons of which I would prefer, and after much deliberation deciding that I would rather go for the job. It's been a whirlwind because the job would have meant being separated from my partner for a period of time, relocating, needing to build myself up in a new city, and working hard to keep a new nonprofit going and expanding.
I don't know. It's tough. It's definitely been hard for me to sort out my feelings about all of this.
I'm fine now. I cried when I heard I didn't get the job. But ... This just means grad school. I keep being unable to find work because of my experience level. So grad school will provide me with experience, as well as a network, to get the job I really want. Maybe I don't have any real feelings left to spend on this. It feels like I've already put in far more brainspace than I need to on this issue, and it's finally resolved.
That's a relief!
Otherwise, today's been really weird. It's gorgeous out, but I've been stuck inside sick. I feel fine mentally, but I can't really be out and about. Part of my chronic health issues.
So today has mostly consisted of starting at the beginning of Sailor Moon, doing laundry, and reading. Cuddling the cat. Napping. All the good stuff.
I'm exhausted. Matt said he'd be home with some foods, and should be walking in the door any moment now.
I will probably write a better post later. For now, I guess I'm just documenting the day.
