Validation and Such

Cw: Eating disorder therapy talk

My therapist and I had a super powerful session on Thursday, and I realized that I am seeking validation, but that when I get it I don't remember it. She suggested that I add validation to a gratitude journal of sorts. 

She's been saying for a hot minute that she thinks I might need to go back to Intensive Outpatient Programming for my eating disorder. While I was in IOP I didn't go through a truly restrictive cycle (I was in binge-mode). And now that I've got the bingeing under control I'm reverting to some restrictive stuff. So all of the things I learned there, I was applying to a different face of my Eating Disorder. 

I don't know if I really want to go back (or if I can right now). I'm going to give it some thought though, because I am clearly struggling. 

So, here's my validation/gratitude journal: 

1. My rune clients at the end of the night last night said I was spot on
2. I'm very grateful that I've been able to do so many readings for clients this week. After a VERY dead week at both my gigs, this is necessary.
3. My boss at one book store is convinced that I will be a published author - in her mind, it's only a matter of time. 
4. I am extremely grateful that impeachment hearings are FINALLY happening, though I am worried about a Pence presidency so I hope Pence goes down too

End of day gratitude

 The lists in my last post were over several days, so just a quick list now for today:

1. I'm grateful that I was able to mostly fill my tarot class
2. I'm glad I had enough extra cash that I could buy myself lunch today
3. I'm thankful for a full pantry