New week, I guess

 

 

 

I have been extremely burned out the last two weeks or so. To the point that I've really not been able to do much actual work, which let me tell you is playing havoc on my nerves. Part of the burnout is that I genuinely have a LOT to do, especially if I'm going to get this grimoire in workable template for my students. I have given up entirely on getting even half of it done, but that's ok. A friend of mine reminded me that there is a pedogogical reasoning behind students not having everything right away. 

It's just hard to think that I'll be starting this intensive course and not have all the materials done. 

But also, the burnout cycle is particularly real for me right now. I started crying after working for one hour on Thursday and kind of didn't stop all day. 

I know that I'm releasing some powerful emotions, and that is important work, and ALSO how RUDE that I have to FEEL THIS. 

Meanwhile, I've been trying to focus on anti-burnout strategies the last day and a half. I've definitely had to do some work stuff, but all in all it was pretty ok: 

*Saturday night, instead of trying to force myself to write I went out with my partner to hir friend's birthday party. It was at a very fancy cocktail lounge and there was a live Bohemian folk band (fiddle, mandolin, and guitar).
*Sunday morning found me getting brunch with a friend I haven't seen in way too long. I've been a bit of a dingus and been afraid to reach out to them because they're super introverted (see: I have a tendency to try to manage everything in relationships and thus burn myself out)
*After brunch, we wandered to a vintage/thrift store and I finally bought a winter coat! It is fuzzy and black and has a bat wing decal on the collar
*Spent the afternoon alternately napping and talking with Anais's friend, who had come over while I was out
*Taught a 2 hour class on Earth Magic
*Came home, watched an episode of the Prisoner with my partner, then read Game of Thrones until I fell asleep.

I'm actually feeling a bit rejuvenated today, which I wasn't expecting. I've got an interview for a podcast later this morning (I'm the guest), then Mindful Meal + Therapy in the afternoon, and I'm going to try to finish the Tarotscopes for my patrons. All of this I am hoping to be done with by 3:30pm, and then: I get to RELAX. I will read FICTION. I will clean the HOUSE. I might even DO MY NAILS.

Writing it all out is helpful. I need to do this more often.