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Messing around with herbs and burnout
Apr. 25th, 2022 07:25 pmWell, today Elon Musk bought Twitter so ... continuing to hang on to my Dreamwidth account because this is my favorite form of social media and doesn't have ads, an alogrithm, or problematic owners.
Now if only my real life friends would get on here XD
I felt completely at a standstill today regarding work stuff. One of those "holy shit I have so much to do but I can't figure out what it all is" things. I've reached a level of burnout where I've realized that ... witchcraft and folk magic aren't even all that interesting to me anymore. I've done it for work for so goddamn long, and for so many unpaid hours, that I'm really losing sight of whether or not I want to continue doing it at all.
I mean, I won't stop. When I have a really good client session or when I have a good reading for myself, when I'm in the flow and actually doing magic, it's incredible.
But reading about it and studying it and writing about it and everything is just so exhausting for me these days.
I need a vacation desperately, but in order for that to happen I need to make a lot more money and in order for me to make a lot more money I need to work a lot more and ... you get the point. I really want to travel internationally soon, but it's so expensive. We have a trip out to New Jersey planned for June, but that isn't really a vacation as much as it is prepping move stuff and seeing the in-laws.
I'm almost done reading a monster fanfic (aka 100k+ words). I started reading it so that I could read the SECOND in the series, in which Draco is Trans and I neeeeeeeeed to read it. But the author basically said "this will not make sense unless you read the first one" so I read the first one. There are some hints at a Big Secret that Draco is keeping and there are definitely some instances where Draco seems very in-the-closet trans, but I think it's only noticeable to me because I'm trans.
Hopefully tonight we'll watch more Our Flag Means Death. If Anais doesn't want to watch it tonight, I might just ask for permission to finish it on my own XD I need a funny thing tonight. For the healing burnout purposes.
Now if only my real life friends would get on here XD
I felt completely at a standstill today regarding work stuff. One of those "holy shit I have so much to do but I can't figure out what it all is" things. I've reached a level of burnout where I've realized that ... witchcraft and folk magic aren't even all that interesting to me anymore. I've done it for work for so goddamn long, and for so many unpaid hours, that I'm really losing sight of whether or not I want to continue doing it at all.
I mean, I won't stop. When I have a really good client session or when I have a good reading for myself, when I'm in the flow and actually doing magic, it's incredible.
But reading about it and studying it and writing about it and everything is just so exhausting for me these days.
I need a vacation desperately, but in order for that to happen I need to make a lot more money and in order for me to make a lot more money I need to work a lot more and ... you get the point. I really want to travel internationally soon, but it's so expensive. We have a trip out to New Jersey planned for June, but that isn't really a vacation as much as it is prepping move stuff and seeing the in-laws.
I'm almost done reading a monster fanfic (aka 100k+ words). I started reading it so that I could read the SECOND in the series, in which Draco is Trans and I neeeeeeeeed to read it. But the author basically said "this will not make sense unless you read the first one" so I read the first one. There are some hints at a Big Secret that Draco is keeping and there are definitely some instances where Draco seems very in-the-closet trans, but I think it's only noticeable to me because I'm trans.
Hopefully tonight we'll watch more Our Flag Means Death. If Anais doesn't want to watch it tonight, I might just ask for permission to finish it on my own XD I need a funny thing tonight. For the healing burnout purposes.
